Oh my goodness what a day it has been! We are already running super late because guess who woke up to a flat tire today!? But we were glad it was today instead of tomorrow because we drive to Santa Rosa tomorrow! And everything all worked out just fine. But we are supposed to go to the beach with Kevin and Amanda today so this will be really quick!
So yesterday in Relief Society we were discussing Elder Hollands talk, "Aren't We All Beggars?" and Sis. Pollock asked us all if we ever had a time where we were on our knees asking forgiveness from the Lord. The discussion kind of turned to how we as women feel like we are inadequate for the job, and how bad this world is becoming. It then clicked. All of it! It made sense to me. I FINALLY found out the real reason why I came on a mission! 15 months later! I was answering the question by telling the relief society that before my mission (and even sometimes now) I would always complain about how horrible this world is. Good is bad and bad is good, right!? Like all over the earth. People are accepting sin and judging others when they do good. I didn't really have a good reason for coming on a mission, it just kind of happened. I had good examples like Mandy and Rex and all of my cousins, but I really didn't know why.
So as I am thinking about this question that Sis Pollock asked and how we all feel inadequate I automatically thought of the every day life of a missionary. We sometimes slip up and we dont talk to every person that we see. Sometimes we are selfish and we dont follow through on the promptings that we have. Sometimes we don't know all of the answers to our investigators questions, sometimes we aren't being exactly obedient..you know and the list goes on and on and on. People tell us all of the time that we are inadequate for the job and that we are only 19 and 23 yrs old, we don't know what we are talking about. We are not perfect. Haha! But we all have weaknesses. Weakness does not equal sin. God gives us weaknesses to become more like him, to strengthen ourselves and to build our confidence. We are here to grow and to progress and to make mistakes but to learn from them as well. But it is important to realize when we do wrong and to repent and beg for forgiveness. So everyday we are on our knees right?
I came on a mission not to be dragged down by every person that I meet telling me that I cant do the job, or that I am too young to understand. I came on a mission to make a difference in this world. I am literally doing the best that I can to show this world that there is good. I kept thinking of Michael Jacksons song "Man in the Mirror" (I repented dont worry :) ) but it is true. Instead of talking about how much I hate this world I will DO what I can to stand up for what I believe is true. I LOVED Elder Hales talk about Religious Freedom. His was my favorite. If we ALL do OUR OWN part we can make a difference. God is good and in Him we will find joy peace and happiness.
Hope that all made sense! It all just clicked yesterday haha. Anyways I love you all! have a great week!! Love, Hermana Hamblin
PS I am six month-ing it here in Willits!